I will never be the same...

So I posted a little blip about the twins earlier today, thinking I had done my blog for the week. Well today is a Saturday and Cody had to go to work. He was working in his lab and he was the only one at the building and since I had all 3 kids all by myself and we were all bored and missing him, he told us to pack up a picnic, get the kids' scooters, and let them come down and play in the empty parking lot and eat lunch with him. We all loved that idea so we got all packed up... (Lulu complete with her overnight suitcase full of coloring books, boomerangs, carebears, and her favorite dolly,) and we headed down to South Ogden. Here's where my life changed forever. Since being pregnant this time around, my diabetes that I just love so so much, (sense the sarcasm) has been really wacky. My blood will just drop out of nowhere. It's happened 3 or 4 times now in my 12 weeks of pregnancy where it hits me so fast that I don't even know what's going on. This time, it happened while I was driving with all my kids in the van with me. Talk about putting all your eggs in one basket. (Yes, I drive a van. Don't know what I was thinking when I bought that...) Anyway, there I am driving on the freeway going 75 mph and suddenly things start going black. I didn't even realize I was driving. I had packed a few grape sodas in the picnic so I grabbed one and started to guzzle but had I been in my right mind, I would have pulled over and taken care of things. I remember seeing the Farr West exit and being annoyed with someone who was passing me again and again and making mean faces... now that I look back they were probably considering calling 911 and reporting me as a dui! I don't remember seeing any other exits. I do remember wondering why I couldn't keep my van in the lines of the road, why I could hear so many horns honking, and why we seemed to be going so fast. Also my hand was having convulsions and I couldn't hold the soda steady and kept dropping it. When I pulled into the parking lot at Cody's work, I had NO IDEA how I had gotten there. Everyone got out of the van and ran to hug Cody, having no clue anything was wrong and I stayed in there and just shook. As my blood sugar started to come up from the soda, I started to realize what had just happened. I said a thank you prayer to my Heavenly Father and then bawled my eyes out for about 10 minutes!!! I have never been so scared in my life. It's one thing for just me to be in danger but to put my whole family in danger was more than I can take. Cody almost called a doctor because I couldn't stop crying and tell him what was wrong but when I finally got the words out he just hugged me and let me cry some more. I know there are angels in my life. Most of them have names like Cherry, Mike, Alisha, Channa, Bill, Pa Rich, everyone in my family really, but the angels that helped me today are the ones that aren't seen but are so definitely there. I could've killed all my kids and myself today. I'm scared to drive again! I know I need to get this blood sugar thing figured out and I have an appointment with my endocrinologist on Wednesday so hopefully I will then, but until then, I have learned a big lesson in the value of life. My testimony of Heavenly Father's presence in my life has also been strengthened. I think I was given this scary experience to wake me up and teach me to treasure every moment I am blessed with while here...

Ode to my twins...

Every other weekend and every Wednesday night, we get to have the twins come stay with us. I met Logan Quinn and Oakley Rain when they were 2 1/2 so I've been in their lives for 6 of their 8 years now. Anyone who says it's easy to be a stepmom is lying but I do love these kids so much. They are well-behaved, happy, funny, smart, loving, forgiving, all the things you'd hope your children to be. They don't have it easy... they bounce between 3 homes each week, 3 sets of rules and standards, 3 different sets of expectations everywhere they go but they keep their cheerful dispositions and go with the flow. I am the kind of person who likes to plan things out and have things organized but I've had to learn to be more go-with-the-flow because of these twins. Many times we have had to drop our plans if they want to come play with us or need somewhere to go and we happily do it because it means we get to see them more than just the arranged time. There are so many hard things about their situation but I am just grateful that I get to be one of the people they love. I don't feel like I deserve it sometimes, especially lately since I'm pregnant and less tolerant...(8 is the question age and those questions just never stop coming!!!) but I do love them and just hope we're not messing them up so much that they'll be monsters when they hit the teen years. :) Love you kids!!!

I'm starting my 30th year!!!!

So my birthday was a week ago today. I turned 29 which means I am starting my 30th year. Cody had a hard time turning that age. He said it was the worst week of his life. But I don't know... I don't think I will have such a hard time. I am aging with grace. :) Not that I look great or anything... I just am happy with my life. I have a beautiful little girl who is like my own personal happy pill, another baby on the way who so far is healthy, the twins who love and play with Rian so well, we just got into our first house, I have 2 great degrees behind me to fall back on if needs be, my own dance studio with the cutest girls ever to dance with me, and a hubby who loves me and works really hard to support us. I think Cody's hard thing was that he wasn't where he wanted to be in life by the time he hit that age. I can see that too, I mean, not everything is perfect but nothing ever is and I'm looking forward to my 30s. I hear that's when women hit their prime. Since I still have acne, I think I haven't hit my prime yet. :) But to celebrate, Cody took me to a "Bride Wars," which was a total chick flick (he did a ball check as we left), and we ate at Good Wood, which was SO GOOD! My family is still throwing a little shindig this Sunday where my mom will make me a yummy dinner and my favorite dessert, brownies with frosting and nuts, and I get some cute new clothes! Birthdays are fun. And it was neat to see who remembered that day too! Here's a shout-out to Aubrie Hawker Sumko, my friend since 7th grade. She remembered! It always feels good to be remembered. Happy Birthday me!

Happy update

This is a picture of Lulu showing you the picture of the baby in her belly. :) We are having a baby!!!! I am 8 weeks along and due at the beginning of August. We are so excited. The OB yesterday thought it was so cute that Lulu thought she was having a baby too so he gave her an ultrasound picture of her own. She has been showing everyone, everywhere she goes so I guess we can't keep this a secret much longer. YAY!!


So our family is growing but it grew even more 2 days after Christmas when Cody brought home a kitty! She is 2 years old, house-trained, had her shots, and adorable. We love her. Lulu named her Tinkerbell... of course.






And the other night, I heard everyone calling for me so I went to look for them. Well this isn't a real huge house so there aren't many places they could hide. After Lulu's little giggles gave them away, this is where I found them! We love to play-hide-and-go-seek in the dark. And p.s... Cody shaved the beard! Oh I've missed that face!

Luluisms...

This cute little girl is the light of my life. I wanted to write down the cute things she says so I'll always remember this fun stage. It all goes by so fast!! She is in a phase where she is very opinionated about what she wears and she's none too happy if I try to put anything on her body other than a dance suit and tutu. She is so loving and imaginative and silly. We love this kid.

*She mixes up the phrases, "I love you so much" and I love you too" and comes out with, "I love you too much!"
*Instead of "everyday" she says "ever day"
*Instead of "hiccups" its "haircups"
*Instead of "Abracadabra" its "craba craba"
*Instead of "popcorn chicken", her favorite treat at Wal-Mart, its "chicken pop"
*Instead of "mouthwash" its "mau walish"
*Instead of "Here I am!" its "Here me are!"
*Instead of "I want you to hold me" its "I want to carry you"
She always asks me, "What doin?" and then just out of the blue, while we'll be playing or cleaning things up together or whatever, she'll say, "I think so."
She calls her dad "Daddy Dad" and I'm "Mommy Mommy Mom."
And she thinks the twins live to be her servants, pets, entertainment committee, you name it. What would we do without her?